An year with a Bipolar Disorder Patient

It was the evening of early November, I met a girl over phone and she looked very honest on the call and i had amazing time talking to her, we had talked a lot about some common topics of the world about subconscious mind, wrong parenting, affirmations and exchanged a lot of info about each other. We liked each other too much and we started talking often.

We both were very honest on most of the the things we used to talk. We used to talk a lot about our families, friends, relatives. We used to discuss the common self awareness topics and were having our time of life. I used to feel like I found the soul mate and there is no better girl in the world. We used to talk long hours in starting couple of hours and later more 3-4 hours a day. It was like we both were searching for this king of person with whom we can talk for as much time we want. As time passed the day come when we expressed the love for each other and were very excited to have that amazing feeling of love. We used to watch movies together, play games online, talk romance.

However, some times it felt like she is having a bit of mood swings which I ignored. Days passed months passed we had a perfect valentines. There was no topic left which we had not discussed. It felt like finally I got a person whit whom i can discuss on any topic I want to discuss. That is the feeling of power and immense happiness, as if the life was just flowing.
We planned our marriage and got married. It was a very smooth marriage.

After marriage it felt like she has some issues with yellow lights which are a bit dim, she started having a lot of mood swings. She seemed different, however, we were still able to enjoy our time though in a bit different way and had a lot of fights on small things. We used to play video games and talk about all kinds of topics all the time.

As few months passed her behavior became more erratic. I started asking are you all right she used to say yes and one day she told me that she has bipolar disorder and she was being treated for that from past 11 years. She had stopped taking her medicine just 15 days before marriage so that I cannot know that she has bipolar disorder. Now, it was around 5 months she did not have her medicine. So, I suggested that lets start your medicine and I talked with her psychiatrist and he suggested lithium based medicine. I felt betrayed and was secretly googling about Bipolar Disorder.

It was the time I realized that she had became very unstable, stopping the medicine was the biggest mistake as brain oriented medicines take time to make person stable, now it would take long time to get stable which made me worried. Till now I used to feel that she is depressed and is hiding something which I came to know was bipolar disorder, and then a day came when she had her first maniac swing in front of me - it was frightening she continuously talked for hours with her parents spilling all the secrets of our life as a couple with her parents which made me very uncomfortable even the minute details of our intimate relationship. Her psychiatrist told me that we need to give her heavy medicine to make her sleep.

She had sleep problems was not able to sleep, once slept was not able to wake up soon, was not able to perform her daily activities properly and I was suffering of the betrayal and never ending problems. Which soared our relationship. Lies are the real destroyer of relationships.

Moral: Choose the path of truth, it may be very difficult, however, it will bring long term happiness and joy. Short cuts will ruin your life.